Wednesday 27 November 2019

Bracken


The rain has stopped, but the ground is still sodden. I walk through puddles to the canal, and by the time I reach the towpath my boots and the hems of my trousers are splattered with mud. The grasses beside the track across the field are flattened and yellow, the taller clumps dull ochre. And yet the hills are green, a green made even greener by the redness of dead bracken. The painter John Constable knew how to use red to strengthen the colour green; as a child I’d searched his pictures for the red - a scarlet cap or waistcoat, or an ornamental saddle to bring out the green of stream and meadow.

Today the redness of the bracken is astonishing; it defies analogy. Not amethyst, not chestnut, not madder, but all of these and all at once, a rich deep drowning of the hills in garnet. And the redness is doubled, each bracken frond reflected in the ebony surface of the canal. It is quite simply breath-taking.

Monday 25 November 2019

Illness


For several weeks I've been ill, really seriously ill – I've had sepsis and pneumonia and there were hours when my life hung by a thread. It’s going to take me long time to get better. 

Since coming out of hospital at the end of September I’ve had a second bout of infection, a fifth course of antibiotics. 

My body is exhausted, but so too is my mind. Walking has been beyond me. Blogging has been beyond me.

I've been told it will take me a long time to recover, but no-one is saying how long. Suddenly, I'm old.